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[17 Feb 2009|05:39pm] [ mood | cheerful ] Ladies and Gents... i might have a job next year!!!! May Institute called me and is calling me back again tomorrow to ask me questions. And hopefully set up an interview. Its one of my top places to work at. Its in Randolph, MA, so its not too bad of a location. Its really exciting. hehe. Well going out to dinner with the boyfriend. Yes i have a  boyfriend, his name is Nick. Hes pretty awesome. So i'll update you all later how the phone call goes with may Institute. later post comment

[31 Dec 2008|09:28am] So i've been thinking which is a bad thing sometimes. So first the bad news, my uncle died the other night. My family and I knew it was coming since he was diagnosed with this disorder but its still sad. My good friends knew about this cause i've always talked about it and im sorry for that. I know you guys dont really want to hear my problems or concerns that much but sometimes i need to talk, hope thats okay with everyone because i always listen to your problems or concerns. But i was down in Naples Florida when i heard the news with my grandma (he was his sister) and it was just hard to see her in a mess. I would be a mess too if it was my brother. He was too young to die, he was only 68. Thats too young to die!  Rest In Piece Uncle Chip. Good news: going to barbados soon. and im wicked pumped for that. hehe. but i cant text this guy every day like i have been doing but thats okay. i can email and what not. oh that reminds me, i should probably get his email haha. Being down in florida made me realize that my life after college will be okay. If i dont have a special someone its okay, i'll find someone eventually in my life. All of the old people think i will do just fine with my major haha. Go figure haha. im going to head to the pool now. More detail entry soon i promise. Later folks post comment

[21 Dec 2008|11:23pm] bgraf2185 (11:17:18 PM): omg bgraf2185 (11:17:21 PM): back to the old meg PrincessSccr 3 (11:17:40 PM): yeah its okay bgraf2185 (11:18:04 PM): good i missed her ladies and gents, im back! as my friend above has said. im back to myself and loving it. post comment

[10 Dec 2008|09:22am] [ mood | giggly ] Hi I'm back. You all probably thought i was dead or something because i havent wrote in this thing in like forever. I just dont have the time or dont know what to say haha. Well today is the last day of classes. this semester went by so fast. it was ridicilous. I'm not looking forward to next semester because that means im almost done with college and i have to face the real world and im not ready for it yet! And i dont want to take classes either, this semester was nice. I had an internship and worked with little kids and loved it. Yesterday was my last day of it and they all didnt want me to leave and i had hold back the tears. That internship is an experience i will not forget with my entire life. It was the best thing that could happen to me. I dont think that feeling can be replace. Yesterday, there was this boy who i have been helping with sight words (for all of those who dont know what sight words are, its words that you cant sound out and you just have to memorize them) with spelling them and saying them. Well this boy who had trouble, finally got most of them. I almost cried. It was the best feeling in the world. Almost better then being in love with someone. i just love helping people out, especially kids. I know what i want to do with my life because of this internship. Im going to get my masters in Social Work and do early intervention. And then maybe after that, do special education. I just love that aspect. Well there this boy. I kind of like him. It sucks that he lives in CT and i wont see him over winter break cause i'll be in Florida and Barbodas for most of the break. haha. But this boy goes to WPI and hes kind of  a geek but i kind of am okay with that. He supports everything i do and actually cares about things in my life. For instance, i got a text message asking how my champion meet is going during that long weekend. That kind of showed me he might really care about me. And thats a great feeling. I just dont know how to describe how i feel. I miss Dave! I've been talking to him lately and i just wish i could see him. I used to tell him stories about everything but when adam and i broke up, things changed because i was afriad to talk to him cause hes like adams best friend. Speaking of Adam i wonder hows hes doing lately. barely talk to him now haha. Oh well. Its helping me getting over him. I talked to Brendon last night on the phone. I miss him as well. Hes like my older brother i never had. He likes to make sure nothing bad has happen to me and what not. I helped him with a project haha. Well i need to go and get ready for the day. Christmas in Charlies is today and then Lessons and Carols is tonight! i love assumption and im going to miss it next year! ok thats all for now. I'll update mor often now, i promise. haha. have a great day everyone! post comment

[25 Aug 2008|07:48am] [ mood | content ] Summer 08 is almost done. part of me is happy well the other part of me is kind of sad. I love the summer where i can hang out with friends and dont have to worry about school work. But i miss my school friends and cant wait to hang out with them all the time. I decided that tonight im going to give a full detail of my summer. the most exciting things have happened to me this summer. Even if there were some awful times, following them were good times. For instance, when Adam broke up with me, i went to this amazing beach for the first time, almost a little better then Cranes beach. And it clear my thoughts, and god granted it helped that a very good friend of mine was with me haha. But more about that later ;-) i have to get ready for work now, thats why i cant really give a full detail entry. And i know its been forever since i last updated. So i will later. Hope everyone is enjoying the last week of summer. And for those who are already back at school, good luck and have a fun safe year! post comment

[23 Jul 2008|06:29pm]  ok so im doing better. i feel loved again. If you go to my inbox of text messages, pretty much the only ones are Will and Brian. i love it. My life is going pretty sweet. I cant really complain.  And soon enough i'll be back in worcester where i belong. and enjoy senior year. i cant wait for that.  And thats about it.  And p.s. Dave, i miss seeing your face! lets hang out soon!!!!! post comment

[19 Jul 2008|04:36pm] [ mood | blah ] Ok so summer needs to end now. im sick of ipswich. im sick of doing nothing. i used to have a life then that fell apart on me. Just like how my heart fell apart on me as well.  But im getting stronger every day i like to believe. I have this guy friend that i kind of like. But whenever we have plans something comes up and we cant hang out. It makes me angry. but we have plans this sunday. hopefully it will happen.  I just need school to be here cause i miss my school friends and i have a better life at school then i do at home. dont get me wrong, i love my job here. i love seeing the campers and make them smile is worth working the lifeguard shift during the day. And the co-workers i work with are awesome. Tim and I make the campers sing camp songs before they swim and its awesome.  Well i dont know what else to say. Hope everyones summer is going well. post comment

[19 May 2008|08:28pm] "Missing someone isn't about how long it's been since you've seen them last or the amount of time since you've talked. It's about that very moment when you're doing something and you wish that they were right there with you." Ok so its been like forever since i last updated this thing. Honestly, i just dont care about this thing anymore that much. And plus i've been busy with stuff. Well its officially summer time and i'm working again. Get to love work. Being home is nice but at the same time its boring. I belong at worcester, thats where my heart is. Actually my heart is with adam.  This past weekend, i spent friday and saturday night with adam. it was a lot of fun. Even when we did nothing, i still enjoyed being with him. We did a puzzle together and it was actually fun. The small things mean the most to me. I won't lie, i love the braclet and necklace that adam gave me but i have to say my favorite present of his was the CD he made me and the meaning behind each song. I don't even know why i thought of that haha. So back to the weekend, adam and i went to the movies friday night, we saw Iron man. It was a good movie. Then on sat during the day we just relax and what not. Then at night, we hung out with Jim and Kim. It was a lot of fun. And the best feeling in the world is waking up next the person you care the most about and love the most. Overall, the weekend was amazing.  Well thats about it. write later 2 comments|post comment

[21 Apr 2008|01:04pm] [ mood | okay ] so i have to say the one of the best feelings in the world is waking up with an arm around you knowing its love. this past weekend was amazing. i love seeing adam. he makes me smile. i have to say i would love to have every weekend with him. I already miss him but thats okay. cause summer is almost here. can you believe that summer is almost here? isnt that crazy? i think so. i'm going to miss everyone here at assumption. like erin, cara, frogg, jules, jim, lauren, mk, and many others. Ok, so i'm going to see most of them over the summer but still, thats not the point haha.  ok well i need to go and do things. its getting crazy here with all of the school work i need to do. later folks. post comment

[03 Apr 2008|04:14pm] [ mood | loved ] I'm only me when i'm with you by taylor swift Friday night beneath the stars, in a field behind your yard, you and I are paintin' pictures in the sky. And sometimes we don't say a thing; just listen to the crickets sing. Everything I need is right here by my side. And I know everything about you I don't wanna live without you. [Chorus:] I'm only up when you're not down. Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground. It's like no matter what I do. Well you drive me crazy half the time; the other half I'm only trying to let you know that what I feel is true. And I'm only me when I'm with you. Just a small town boy and girl livin' in a crazy world. Tryin' to figure out what is and isn't true. And I don't try to hide my tears. The secrets or my deepest fears. Through it all nobody gets me like you do. And you know everything about me. You say you can't live without me. [Chorus] When I'm with anybody else it's so hard to be myself. Only you can tell. [Chorus:] That I'm only up when you're not down. Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground. It's like no matter what I do. Well you drive me crazy half the time; the other half I'm only trying to let you know that what I feel is true. And I'm only me Who I wanna be Well, I'm only me when I'm with you With you Uh huh Yeah ^This song is goes toward my wonderful boyfriend that i miss deeply right now. I love you post comment

[03 Apr 2008|01:57pm] [ mood | okay ] So good news. I'm getting my second job back. I'm nannying (sp?) again. I love the family i do every summer. The kids can be a pain sometimes but overall, i enjoy being with them. Sometimes i like to imagine how i would be like a mom and doing this job makes me happy because being there all day makes me realize how hard it can be sometimes to deal with busy schedules of the different children but getting through the day with them makes me happy. I remember this one time, someone asked if i was there mother, and i was like do i look old enough to have a child in middle school? I dont think so haha.  Well the semester is beginning to get crazy because its getting to the close of the end of it. Crazy stuff. i can't believe that this semester is almost over. We have a month left of classes and then finals. And then its summer time where i get to see my boyfriend more then once a month if i'm lucky. hehe.  This weekend should be amazing (hopefully). I just hope it i don't freak out or anything haha. Well i need to get ready for my last class of the day. Promise i'll update again soon to let you know how things are.  Well later folks. Hope everyone has a good rest of the semester! post comment

random thoughts.... [24 Mar 2008|10:29am] [ mood | okay ] Think its the perfect time to update....cause yesterday was Easter...Well easter was nice. My dad, my brothers, and I went to church and man it was packed. But we found seats and it was exciting. Then we got back to home and my uncle and aunt came down for a easter lunch/dinner. I never really know what to call it, a late lunch but an early dinner haha. But my aunt gave me a jewelry box and i was like what is this. Its not my birthday or Christmas. But it was my complete pearl necklace that they have been working on since i was little. Its finally done by my 21st birthday and it was so exciting to see it. Now i just need to find an occasion to wear it. hmmmm. lol. But overall easter was good. Being home was much appreciated. I actually didn't work for once this break and it felt amazing. I relaxed during the day and went out during the night. It was just nice seeing some old friends and catching up. I saw sienna Wednesday night and we just hung out and chatted. Then Thursday and Friday night i hung out with Brian. Both nights were fun. I really like his movie selection haha. And then sat night i went out with Amber and we went on an adventure and i miss those adventures with her. It was just nice seeing my home friends that i love. I wish that i did see Ashley, Kylie, Brendon, and Ally but they weren't around. Or i just didn't have time to see everyone i wanted to see. Time just flies by me. I think this summer should be fun. I have some trips planned out with Adam which is exciting. And i am excited to hang out with my home friends as well. Oh my nanny job wants me back, my mom told me this last night cause she completely forgot to tell me during the break. So i need to call her sometime this week and schedule a day i can do that. Thats exciting, i love that family and the money is AWESOME! I love under the table money haha. And then I'm working again at the YMCA this summer. I'm just glad i already have jobs that i love and honestly my job helps me with my goal in life. Teach kids with disabilities. I get kids in swim lessons with those all the time and it makes me feel special when i know stuff about their disability. Also I'm hoping at the beginning of the summer, i might be able to sub as a TA if i don't have regular hours at the YMCA, but we'll see how that goes. well thats about it for now. Oh yea, I don't think i told anyone about my cat except for a few. But my cat last week got hit by a car and did not survive. RIP Simba. You will be missed by many. (Especially by me). Love you Simba. post comment

[18 Mar 2008|03:42pm] [ mood | okay ] So its only tuesday and i want this week to be over now. i'm not in the mood for school. My mind is at different places right now and i can't concerate on anything right now. Like honestly, i don't know whats wrong with me. But i think going home and getting away from everything is nice. And thank god i go to a catholic school and have a nice break for easter. Because if i didnt, i might scream at someone and i don't want to do that. After 12:30 tomorrow, i'm golden. I can relax for a bit and not worry about things quite yet. But after easter break, its the long stretch until summer. I still can't believe that this year is almost over already. It just feels like yesterday that i started school. And quite honestly, i want the summer but at the same time i don't want it because i love my friends here. Well i need to write a paper, so i will write later on my life. post comment

[26 Feb 2008|01:35pm] [ mood | okay ] Here are 10 things most women don't want to hear: 1) "What did you do to your hair?" Unless we've cut our own hair—this is not common—someone else did something to our hair. It wasn't us. And most likely we've gone to a lot of trouble and expense for it. "I like your new haircut" is infinitely better, and shows you're paying attention. It's also far superior to the generic "You look different," which tells us you're as clueless as ever. 2) "They both look the same to me." We understand you care a lot less than we do about the outfits or the registry dishware we're asking you to compare. But they can't possibly look exactly the same, can they? Give us something. Anything. Mentally roll the dice and pick one, so we don't worry about your vision—or worse, that you don't care. 3) "Relax." A kissing cousin to "Don't get so worked up," this generally creates the exact opposite effect you're shooting for. When you say "Relax," what we hear is that you think that we're being irrational over nothing, and this makes us do anything but relax. 4) "I've got it all under control." Ha! Famous last words. Refrain from using them if you don't want us to take fiendish delight in your getting lost because you won't stop for directions (if we're late, there will be fiendish fuming), or because you're missing a piece to your flat-screen television because you said you didn't need to read the assembly instructions. 5) "You're not one of those feminists, are you?" Yikes. Chivalry may be nearly dead, but saying this will drive the last spear through its heart. Feminist or not, a woman is likely to be offended by the question. Just be yourself. Be kind, open the door, offer to pay, and go from there. We can choose to accept or share in your generosity. 6) "When are you due?" Take one second to imagine a woman turning to you and responding, "I'm not pregnant," or "I had the baby six months ago," and you'll understand why you should eradicate this question from your vocabulary. In one nanosecond, innocent—even considerate—curiosity can turn to deadly, if unintentional, offense. And there's just no way to recover from this one. 7) "You're being emotional." In the heat of the moment this may be true. But unless you want your partner to become more emotional or get angry, you're better off keeping this observation and its off-limits follow-up question—"Is  it that time of month?"—to yourself. 8) "You're acting just like your mother/my mother/my ex-girlfriend." All three are problematic. An ex should be mentioned sparingly, and never in comparison. Why would we want to remind you of a person you broke up with? And come to mention it, why are you thinking about her? You see the slippery slope. Conjuring an image of our mother or your mother can be equally grating. We want you to treat us as individuals and not as mere products of your (or our) upbringing. 9) "You complete me." We've seen "Jerry Maguire" and most other romantic comedies far more often than you, and while we may (or may not) like cheesy movie lines, they usually fail in real life. We understand that the possibility of romance makes inexplicable things come out of a man's—and sometimes a woman's—mouth, but keep the compliments real and honest and sincere and say you love someone when you mean it. 10) "Do you really think you should be eating that?" Yes. She should be eating it. Even if she told you she's given it up. This is for all of you guys who tend to say the wrong things at the wrong time. Just keep that in mind. Especially you dave :-P haha post comment

[19 Feb 2008|05:21pm] [ mood | okay ] So i know its been a while since i last wrote in this thing. Its cause i've been so busy lately that i haven't really had time. Lets see where should i begin. Well this past weekend i went to Penn State to visit Adam. That was so much fun, driving 14 hours altogether was def worth it. We celebrate valentines day late but it was nice. We exchange presents friday night, he gave me a movie (No Reservations), this big stuff dog, and chocolates. Then he also bought me shorts that say penn state on the ass and a winter hat. It was so nice of him. I really love him. I don't know what i would do without him in my life. Lets be honest here, hes been there for me no matter what and always is caring about me. I havent found someone that perfect in a long time and it kinds of frightful. But at the same i love it. So that was this past weekend. One of the better weekends. And the weekend before that i went to Smith College with Erin to see Sienna for her birthday. that was a lot of fun. Sienna and i went to this bar in a tunnel and it was sick. I enjoyed it. I had a cosmo. That kind of made me typsy wont lie and then having a smirnoff ice after that def made me typsy. haha. that was a fun night. And now spring break is a couple of weeks and i'm pumped cause i'm going to florida!! yaaay!!! (its not as good as paris but i'll take it dave! haha) Well i'm hungry. Time for dinner. later folks! 1 comment|post comment

[27 Jan 2008|01:28am] [ mood | okay ] you know when you are in love when you can't stop talking to him. hes the world to me. thats all. post comment

spring semester has begun... [23 Jan 2008|01:09pm] [ mood | okay ] So ladies and gents, i'm back at school and loving every minute of it. Its going to be a lot of work even though i'm only taking four classes this semester. I'm taking medical aspects of disabilities, casemangement of rehab, psychiatic rehab, and schools and society. The classes are interesting so far. I think my hardest class this semester is going to be casemangement of rehab because theres a lot of work in that class. I'm not too worried about my other classes so far but we will see.  The end of winter break was nice. But the last week was kind of boring minus seeing Rascal Flatts in concert. But other then that everyone home was back at school and i was bored haha. I'm just glad to be back at school. but i have to say that i miss adam really much and its almost like killing me cause i have no idea when i can see him because i have three swim meets in a row. It kind of sucks. But i think i will survive cause i'm strong and so is adam.  Well good news about the apartment, we didnt get a fifth roommate, which makes life great. I'm really happy about that. Cause we can use the third closet as a share one. and we can keep crap on the other desk in the corner haha.  well i need to meet erin now for lunch. so ill update later in more details. post comment

recap of 2007 [01 Jan 2008|07:06pm] [ mood | touched ] So  i can't believe its already 2008. how scary is that? next year i'll be graduating college and that just scares the crap out of me. Because i don't know what i want to do. I do know is that i can't live at home much longer then a year after graduating college, so i need to find an apartment that i can afford.  so i'm going to recap the year of 2007 and see if i remember everything that was pretty sweet.  Lets see, started the year off by going to the movies with ashley. Then it was my 20th birthday and celebrated that birthday for a week. Winter break was pretty sweet. then i was back at school and had so many things going on that was amazing. Spring Break i couldnt go to florida this time and i don't remember why but i did see Kylie during that spring break cause she was the only one home that week. Then next thing we know its april and i had a new boyfriend Kevin. Which ended up as a diaster and we decided being friends was the best thing for us and not being a couple. Then Pup cup weekend was here and it was sweet! I got so drunk that night Jim and I called his friend Adam and i took the phone and started to talk to him and i thought he said hot. So next thing we know Jim is hooking us up. After finals, Jim, Kim, Adam (the guy Jim was hooking me off with) and i went to lunch. It was a lot of fun and things clicked between us. Then memorial day weekend came along and i went to westborough for the weekend and stayed at adams house. That weekend, adam and i went on our very first date and asked me out as a girlfriend. May 26 <3. that weekend was one of my favorites this year/summer.  During this weekend i met one of the coolest guys name Dave and i feel like our friendship is strong and i'm so glad we became friends. this past summer i did so many things that made me happy including seeing adam a lot. And working a lot as well. And celebrating Erins birthday. Also driving to Rholde Island with Erin to go to Cara's birthday was a lot of fun as well. I have to say i love these two girls. And seeing MK a lot this past summer was pretty sweet, drinking that weekend at adams was awesome. I love my drinking buddy, we need to drink again MK this semester!  August 11, 12, and 13 was "The Weekend" and it was awesome! I finally met Daves girlfriend Mary and it was a fun weekend in general. Well summer ended and i started my Junior year at an apartment with Cara, Katie, and Morgan. And Erin as our other roommate who was always there but didn't sleep there haha. love it!  In the fall, swim team started at Assumption. Which made meghan a happy girl. Cause i get to swim again all the time and swim at meets, honestly the swim meets make me happy. and its a lot of fun. I've made some new friends and its so exciting. I'm swimming the 500 again and enjoying every minute of the swim team. Sometime in the month of October i went to visit Adam at Penn State and it was sweet! Then over thanksgiving break, Adam and I celebrated our 6 months which was a big thing for both of us. I love him. Then finals started, and the semester ended pretty quickly. Winter break started off slowly because people weren't home yet. I worked a lot at the beginning of the semester cause i was bored. Then adam was home! and of course the first weekend he was home i was at his house seeing him. Then it was christmas which was nice. I saw my grandparents which i missed a lot, so it was nice seeing them. Then it was new years eve. And i ended up celebrating it with adam and his friends from home which i love!  Overall, this year was pretty sick. I had so many good times and just thinking of the good times makes me smile and cry at the same time cause i miss some of those times. But lets hope 2008 will be as awesome as 2007 was! I love you all! 2 comments|post comment

year 2007 [01 Jan 2008|07:01pm] [ mood | okay ] IN 2007 I: [ ]stayed single [x] got kissed [x]kissed someone new [X] kissed in the snow [] kissed in the rain [x] had my heart broken [x] broke someone else's heart [ ] had a stalker [x]lost a friend [x]had a good relationship with someone [ ] questioned my sexual orientation [ ] came out of my closet [ ] got pregnant [ ] had an abortion [ ] got married [ ] had a divorce [x] kissed someone of the same sex [x] met someone that I will never forget. [x] did something I regret []lost faith in love for awhile [ ] kissed under mistletoe [ ] got my first job [x] got a promotion [x] got a pay raise [] changed jobs []lost my job [ ] quit my job [ ] dated a co-worker [ ] dated my boss [ ] dated my boss's son/ daughter [ ] got fired from my job [ ]got straight A's [ ] failed a class [x]did something I was proud of [x] fell in love with a teacher [x] was involved in something that I will never forget [ ] painted a picture [] wrote a poem [x] ran a mile [x] listened to music I couldnt stand [x]double dipped [] skinny dipped [x] went to a sleepover [ ] went to camp [x] threw a surprise party [x]laughed till I cried [x] flirted shamelessly [ ] visited a foreign country [ ]visited a foreign state [ ]cooked a disastrous meal [x] lost something important to me [x] got a gift I love [x] realized something new about myself [] tried to gain weight [] dyed my hair [ ] came close to losing my life []someone close to me died [X] went to a wild party [ ] got arrested [x]read a great book [x] saw a great movie [ ] saw a movie so scary that it made me cry [ ]saw a favorite band live [x] did something that I want to tell someone but cant [x]experienced something new [x]made new friends [x] found out who your real friends are [x] lied to your parents [ ] got in trouble with police [x] kissed in a pool [x] kissed under the stars [] did an illegal drug [x]went to a party [x]had the time of your life [x]danced [] fell out of love [x]had a crush on someone [ ] changed your sexual preference [x] swam in a pool [ ] made a snowman [ ] went snowboarding [ ] went sledding [] slept in past 2pm [x] held someones hand [x] held someones hand that you care about [x] told someone you like them as more than a friend [X] gone on vacation [x] gone on vacation with a friend [x]driven a car [ ]learned to play a musical instrument [ ] played strip poker [x] danced in the rain [x] seen someone get in a car accident(well didnt see someone I got in one) lol [ ] got in a fist fight [x]laughed until you couldn't breathe [x] had an amazing year [x]missed someone [] got hit by car [ ] sent someone to the hospital [x] got a new pet [x]enjoyed this year  This year was pretty awesome. And i think this year will be even better. i just have this feeling. 1 comment|post comment

Merry Christmas! [23 Dec 2007|08:09pm] [ mood | okay ] Deck the halls with boughs of holly It's the season to be jolly And be thankful for all that we have All the lights and decorations Put up in the anticipation Of the joyful celebration That's on its way We're counting the days 'Til it's time for Christmas day Oh and God bless us everyone The good and the bad The happy; the sad Oh and God bless us everyone Here's to family and friends It's good to be here again On the streets there's children laughing People smile as they are passing Christmas time is here, our waiting is done Wishing it could last forever Not just twelve days in December Through the year let's try to remember That special way That everyone feels It's the magic of Christmas day Oh and God bless us everyone The good and the bad The happy; the sad Oh and God bless us everyone Here's to family and friends It's good to be here again So fill your heart with love and joy And through the eyes of girls and boys Share their wonder, live through their joy It's easy to do, just open your heart The spirit will come to you Oh and God bless us everyone The good and the bad The happy; the sad Oh and God bless us everyone Here's to family and friends It's good to be here again I hope everyone has a good christmas this year! love you all! post comment

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